I still remember that it seemed safer to stay in the womb of a mother who I knew did not welcome me with an open heart than to enter a world whose energies I felt clearly before I could even see
her. So I struggled and fought back, which resulted in me being born with only the umbilical cord wrapped twice around my neck. So much for wearing sweaters with turtlenecks.
Next, someone took me by the feet and patted me firmly on the back while I was dangling upside down, and I just thought, "Thank you, no. Where's the exit here?" This question became a wish at times and has been with me all my life.
This place felt terrible. Dense, heavy, unloving - and above all loud. I was used to fly, to communicate telepathically, to travel by mind power and create things ... but nothing worked here. I felt trapped in the fleshy costume I was now wearing and was deadly illusionary. So little by little I closed up.
Between my birth and the age of nineteen I went through almost all the traumatic experiences that modern psychologists can name, and the stress was so great that I learned to withdraw: to leave my body. Whenever the pain seemed to become unbearable, I projected my consciousness out of the body. Until my early twenties I felt more present outside my body than inside, although I learned to live with what was commonly called a "hypersensitive nature". At the same time I was in a strange way clear, much clearer than most people I knew, which very often led to complications that I could not understand at that time.
Thank God the soul always knows exactly what to do. So mine always came up with something to bring me into the here and now, something that touched my heart. She made every effort that I had to face her presence. And so my journey home began.
Bit by bit old memories were breaking up. Triggered by encounters, readings or specific places I began to remember more and more...
My life journey led me to America, where I re-connected with my shamanic roots and found my true spiritual belonging. My stay in the land of freedom for almost ten years initiated a magical, mystical time of inner growth and liberation, which came to an abrupt end with my return to Germany. What had been a period of tremendous spiritual expansion in the United States was now turning into a time of trials and challenges in the country and on the ground where I had grown up. Taking care of my parents and supporting their transition took me deep into an extended dark night of the soul.
What manifested itself as a long-lasting burnout was also a time when the mind was mostly on vacation and the intuitive abilities were able to regroup. So I rose from this difficult phase and opened myself for the first time to the thought of a spiritual activity, although still with a lot of inner resistance. I learned that so-called weaknesses were basically my strengths and made up my power of action. But the pieces of the puzzle of my life did not really fit together yet.
This all changed in a fateful first encounter with Dolores Cannon's life's work. Within two hours everything began to make sense and lay before me in great clarity, like a map of my soul life. I was finally free to do what I had come here to do. Even though I did not know in detail at that time what this would be, I was absolutely sure that I was on the right track.
And so another part of my journey began, which led me to the GrailCode and home to the Sophia Collective and made me aware that I had come here to take my place in this enormous spectacle, where whole galaxies are watching us attentively.
My job is to serve awakening and newly awakened souls in the Ascension process.
Awakening is not a process in which we are thrown into a great unknown that is completely new and unfamiliar to us. Essentially, Awakening takes us on a journey of remembrance, a journey to the highest truth about who and what we are and what we came here for. And so your soul awakens within you, and everything seems new and unknown, strange and perhaps his life is being thrown off course by this. So that you are not alone in this time, that is why I am here. I will help you to remember...